Whose making waves with me?
Well I have been med free for 15 months now. I feel the best I have ever felt in my life. I see things in a totally different way now. Its really hard to explain to anyone that’s never suffered with mental illness just how you see things and how you view life, but I feel like I have new eyes, new brain, new feelings. I do not know if it is because I am no longer medicated so I am now seeing it through unmedicated eyes/numbed feelings, but it is a totally different outlook I have now.
I look back on my past, all the pain, anguish, hurt, being, used abused and taken for granted, and I would like to think that that would never happen again. I like to think that I have ‘learnt’ that I am worth more than that, that I am worth as much as the next person. Yes I AM PROUD OF ME AND WHO I AM. Never ever thought I would say that let alone feel it, but after 45 years I can stand here and say that I truly am proud and happy, to be me.
It hasn’t been an easy journey, as a lot of you may know, but I feel I have had that journey to help me move on to this phase in my life that is making me so passionate about helping others so much. I do not want anyone to have to go through the suffering of mental illness, but if they do, I want it to be a smoother ride than what I received. I want the services to be there to help them, I want them to be treat with respect and dignity and have their views valued.
I know this might be a pipe dream to some, but I am determined that I will change services for those who have no one to help and support them in whatever way they need. I was once called a tiny fish in a vast river, yes that’s me and I’m proud to be fighting the water and waves. Im proud to be making those waves bigger just to get noticed. Its not easy, but hey after all I have been through, this is a piece of cake.
So I ask again, whose making waves with me???
Well I have been med free for 15 months now. I feel the best I have ever felt in my life. I see things in a totally different way now. Its really hard to explain to anyone that’s never suffered with mental illness just how you see things and how you view life, but I feel like I have new eyes, new brain, new feelings. I do not know if it is because I am no longer medicated so I am now seeing it through unmedicated eyes/numbed feelings, but it is a totally different outlook I have now.
I look back on my past, all the pain, anguish, hurt, being, used abused and taken for granted, and I would like to think that that would never happen again. I like to think that I have ‘learnt’ that I am worth more than that, that I am worth as much as the next person. Yes I AM PROUD OF ME AND WHO I AM. Never ever thought I would say that let alone feel it, but after 45 years I can stand here and say that I truly am proud and happy, to be me.
It hasn’t been an easy journey, as a lot of you may know, but I feel I have had that journey to help me move on to this phase in my life that is making me so passionate about helping others so much. I do not want anyone to have to go through the suffering of mental illness, but if they do, I want it to be a smoother ride than what I received. I want the services to be there to help them, I want them to be treat with respect and dignity and have their views valued.
I know this might be a pipe dream to some, but I am determined that I will change services for those who have no one to help and support them in whatever way they need. I was once called a tiny fish in a vast river, yes that’s me and I’m proud to be fighting the water and waves. Im proud to be making those waves bigger just to get noticed. Its not easy, but hey after all I have been through, this is a piece of cake.
So I ask again, whose making waves with me???
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